When My Stomach Tightened Just by Looking at a Calendar
Before I go any further in this story, I need to explain a word I use throughout these experiences: “Gyu.”
In Japanese, “Gyu” is an onomatopoeia—a sound word—that expresses a tightening or squeezing motion.
For me, “Gyu” refers to a sudden tightening in my stomach, almost like someone gently but firmly gripping the center of my abdomen from the inside.
It’s not painful.
It’s more like a clear internal signal, a physical “pull” that appears instantly and unmistakably.
This “Gyu” response began appearing in my everyday life with no warning.
At first I ignored it.
But over time, I realized it wasn’t random.
It reacted to choices, directions, questions—and eventually, it led me into a series of experiments that changed my entire understanding of intuition, guidance, and consciousness.
Before I talk about guides or intuition or anything mystical, I need to describe the very first moment something “unexplainable” happened in my adult life.
It began on a quiet winter night in New York, when I was 38.
My family was asleep.
I was standing alone in our living room, casually looking at the calendar for the upcoming year.
Just a normal, boring moment.
January—
February—
Okay, nothing special.
Then I turned the page to March.
Gyu.
A sudden, unmistakable tightening in my stomach.
The exact feeling I had at the very beginning of labor contractions—
not painful, but a strong internal squeeze, as if some kind of invisible pressure had grabbed my stomach from the inside.
I froze.
…What?
I ignored it and kept flipping.
June — Gyu.
July — Gyu.
August — Gyu, it was so strong it almost hurt.
My mind was racing.
“What is this?
Did three pregnancies leave me with some kind of ‘calendar-triggered contraction syndrome’??
Is this a real disease??”
I panicked.
Because the sensation wasn’t subtle—it was absolutely real.
I tried to calm myself down, took a breath, and checked again.
This time more carefully:
There were patterns.
Some months had no GYU at all.
Some had mild GYU.
Some were “strong-level GYU,” where every single day of the month would trigger it.
Whenever the GYU happened, it happened instantly—as soon as my eyes landed on a specific date.
I kept testing, flipping back and forth between months.
No matter how many times I checked, the pattern didn’t change.
Finally, I grabbed my phone and opened the calendar app.
I marked every single “GYU day” one by one.
But when I finished, I realized something important:
I had absolutely no idea what any of this meant.
Was it medical?
Psychological?
Premonition?
Stress?
Some strange body-memory?
I had no answer.
And because I had no answer, I eventually gave up trying to make sense of it.
I went to bed thinking:
“Whatever this is… I’ll figure it out later.”
I had no idea this bizarre stomach-tightening would become the first signal of what I now call my “awakening.”
At the time, all I felt was confusion, fear, and the desperate hope that it would disappear on its own.
It didn’t.
This was only the beginning.